Thoughts of a lost girl #1


Was feeling a little bummed because it has been a month since I graduated and I still feel lost. I attended only one job interview so far and I got the job, but felt the need to reject it because I felt like it was not for me. I don't understand myself either. But I felt like I made the right decision because ten days after grad, I wasn't still at my best self because of all the storms that had come my way. Thankfully now, all has been well. 

I bumped into this photo while I was browsing through our college photos. Taken by one of my best friends when we had our studio tour at ABS-CBN. The hopeful and full of dreams Lanie. I still miss her sometimes. Funny how this was taken a year before I actually became an intern at ABS-CBN News and Current Affairs. I thought that dreaming of having an internship there was a wistful dream, but it did happen. One of the hardest but worthwhile experiences of my life so far. 

I'd like to remind myself that life is not stagnant although it felt like it is sometimes. We go into this roller coaster of events and happenings in our lives when we least expect it. I am still learning to embrace everything that is coming and will come my way. I've been into a lot of uncomfortable transitions and got lost of my familiarity along the way. Still trying to be comfortable with the uncomfortable. Whatever life may bring, I hope to be reminded of this wistful Lanie who hopes for the best; and aims it. 

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