Shayari Blues

 My February has been filled with so much blessing and of goals coming to life that I feel like I got lucky. I tend to downplay my wins and blame everything on luck. This month taught me that: -           Things meant for you will eventually find you -           I still love reading fantasy books -           I am already good and still in the process of getting better I finally found a job that I could love after months of doubting if I’d ever find one. I was ready to settle with whatever job I could find because it’s been eight months since my previous work, and I feel like I’m starting to get rusty in what I do. I’ve been through a lot of self-doubt nights where I would cry and feel so purposeless. I thought I’d hit jackpot when I landed on this job. It was a tedious process of interviews and I thought I just wouldn’t get it, but I did. ...

 I’m happy. I’ve never seen happiness as an inspiration for writing which is why I’ve been quiet these past few weeks. I rarely become acquainted with this emotion that whenever I feel it, I revel upon it, and as selfish as it sounds, would only want to keep it to myself. But this time, I can feel that it’s different which is why I am also trying to work around it. This time, I know it would stay. After a lot of self-help books, podcasts, and journaling that I’ve done these past two years, I can now look at myself in the mirror with a loving glance. I’ve always thought that being critical with myself has been the reason why I am accomplishing things in life. It was hard to reintroduce this kind of approach, this gentleness towards one’s self, and this love and acceptance that I’ve been trying to look for in others, that was always within me.   I find happiness in the smallest of things. I forgive myself for not accomplishing every thing on my to-do list. I listen to my...