Shayari Blues

Please do check out Pellamuti's Instagram account to buy the zine that I wrote! The rawest collection I've written so far. Also, don't forget to check her other crochet products!  ------ I've always loved reading. When I was little, my parents would buy me storybooks with beautiful illustrations and I'd read them in one sitting. Even after finishing them, I take my time to stare at the details of drawings in admiration. At school, we used to have a little library in our classroom where I used to borrow and read during my free time which is a lot when you're still in elementary. And then there was a day that I've read single book on that shelf and I didn't know what to do next. I used to think reading was something that everyone does, like breathing.   I felt like I was not really much of a huge reader then because I wasn't reading intimidating long books on sciences, mathematics, or history, but I knew from then I am in love with stories. I read my ...

     J.K. Rowling says that if you don't enjoy reading, you might just haven't found the book that is for you. The biggest misconception that the society has about reading is that it is boring. But do you really realize the importance of reading and the benefits the that you could get from it?      Study shows that you are the average of five people you spend most of your time with. As a human being, you adopt and learn from your surrounding. The more time you spend with someone, the more you adopt their habit and mindset. Don't you sometimes catch yourself using your friend's frequently used slang or catch-up phrase? You become what influences you. For example, when your friend says he or she haven't reviewed for your exams, what will you most likely do? You will procrastinate with your friend. This is where the benefit of reading comes into the picture. When you read, you are being influenced with limitless ideas and adopt the author's mindset. Some wou...

Art inspired by CL's new song +5 star+ This photo  CL and Ian  is also uploaded on my IG page! :)

Ugh, been wanting to watch this film for ages so when it came up on Netflix today, I watched it immediately, and my oh my did it not disappoint! Kudos to Ms. Tonette for this great film! This review focuses mostly on the storyline because I am sucker for stories, but I have to admit that the cinematography is superb as well! First of all, why don’t we have a genre for dreams? Yes, dreams! I want to have a genre that could empower dreamers like how romance movies empower hopeless romantics. Just a thought, though. Anyway, the two main points that I love about this movie is the concept of living your “what-if” for a day (don’t we all have one?) and rediscovering yourself. Sometimes we grow up and we think that we are no longer the naïve dreamer we once were. Tine and Raf grew up and became two people far from who they perceived they would become when they were still in college. As a youngster myself, I do have aspirations of changing the world, and like Tine who was changed by th...

After working for Danie and I's little christmas project, I decided to relax in the afternoon since I am not feeling quite well. I'm still in the process of learning and liking being alone. Been reading a lot of self-help books and watching youtubers who encourage self love. It is freeing to realize how I can redefine the things I've learned growing up in my own terms. Something doesn't always felt right with how things were, and I am happy to be here where I realize how I can change that. My life has never been lived by anyone, and nobody knows it better than I do. I think it's essential to unravel yourself and find this fascinating person within you that won't come out if you keep on living the way others have lived. Not sure if that quite makes sense to you, but it makes perfect sense to me. Ah, what a nice day. The sky so blue, the wind slowly blowing the branches of trees, the coldness of ber months starting to hug the world, and the joy the season of...

I want someone to hold me and listen to me because I’m so scared about everything. Fear paralyzes me from the moment I wake up. The emotion clouds my thoughts of not being good enough. I feel like no one would love this disappointing version of myself who could not even get out of bed and face her day. I feel so unlovable. Most days, I still carry the awful things that have been said to me and wonder if they’re true. I feel like my life is heading towards nowhere, sometimes I don’t think it’s even moving. I don’t make progress and I’m stagnant because I’m afraid to be rejected, fail, or make a fool out of myself. I’m so tired of being the person they ran into when they have problems only to have no one when I needed a hand. I’m so scared of losing people I push them away even before they do. I tend to sabotage relationships by showing them my worst traits thinking that maybe if they already saw me at my worst and stayed, then maybe this time they would. But who sticks around a person...

Sometimes, even though it's been a while, I still cannot believe on the permanence of your absence in my life. How can someone just not be there anymore? I hate it . And sometimes I want to be selfish and grab the person that holds your face but what stops me was the thought that nothing would ever change now. I've tried so hard for so long and it's just not there anymore. I just hate how it still fucks me up sometimes. I hate the memories we made and the footprints we left in this town. How can I go around without thinking about all those times? How can you?  I'll sleep this ache. I hope I will eventually get tired of reopening this wound because the outcome would never change and it would always just hurt.