So what?

I’m anxious about going to work tomorrow that it kind of ruined my Sunday. I woke up with the news that I messed up proofreading AGAIN for the nth time. I’m scared with the thought that what if I am not growing? What if I am disappointing people? I so dreaded the feeling of not being good enough and being a failure. I try to do everything to be good and to please people. I am so uncomfortable with the thought that someone hates me or someone doesn’t think I’m deserving of the things I’ve accomplished in the past because I’m a messed up.

But then I realized, so what?

So what if I disappoint people? So what if I lose this job? So what if I am not good enough?

At least I’m trying my best and that has to count for something.

I know the universe falls in love with a persistent and resilient heart. But I cannot keep on insisting on what is not meant for me. Somewhere along the way of being lost, of feeling like a failure, I am going to eventually land where I am supposed to be headed. And there is nothing I can do about it.

So, to conclude my paranoia, I am going to embrace everything that is being presented in front of me.
As Lily said in HIMYM, "Listen to what the world is telling you to do, and take the leap."
x

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