Shayari Blues

One of my dearest dearest friend is experiencing heartbreak similar to mine months ago. Comforting her brought me back to the familiarity of this hurt.  Five months ago, I was left by the person I thought I could keep for always. I tried to keep everything altogether because I was still finishing my thesis then so I had to push back my emotions and wrote this at the back of my planner.  Sent her this piece to remind her that it's okay to feel things, to devour the hurt down to your core and to let it break you. Because it will pass. The hurt will pass as time goes by. You will be yourself again, but first you have to learn to be wiser, stronger and softer. 

It's October and less than a hundred days before Christmas, my favorite time of the year. I used to not know where I'd end up at this point. After college, I feel like a blank and purposeless canvas. But I am slowly filling the tabula rasa that I am. The past weeks have been frustrating and exhausting, but I found a place where I feel like I truly belong. Finally. Somewhere I can be myself, I can practice what I can do, and a place where I know I can be more. I still feel lonely sometimes, but I no longer let myself be consumed by the things that used to control and hurt me. It also amazes me how the months have changed me. 2019 is almost over but the learning continues. Some lessons are meant to hurt. I also learned how not to hold on too much-- how to let go and let things be. How to stop trying to control what I cannot change. I've learned how to persist in my dreams and to live for it. Before, I thought some dreams would stay as dreams. But they are not and we must...