Shayari Blues

Before we wrap up this year to an end, here is a list of what 2016 had taught me: 
 
 1.) Always do your best. 
 2.) It is okay to fail. It is okay to be sad and disappointed but do not let it stop you from pursuing your dreams. 
 3.) Always have the courage to try again. 
 4.) Being scared doesn't mean that you are weak. 
 5.) Give credits to yourself too 
 6.) Do not mind what other people might say about you. 
 7.) You are grumpy at times but always try to be nice. 
 8.) Say what you really feel. 
 9.) Say 'no' without explaining yourself because you do not owe anyone an explanation. 
 10.) Do not forget to always thank Him for all the things that you have asked and had, and also those that you have asked and didn't happen. And also, thank Him for all the beautiful things that had happened this year without you asking for it. 
 
 2016 has been a crazy year for me. It got me through a lot of transitions which has ...

You've probably heard it a lot. Those words. Just be yourself. As cliché as it might sound, that is how you have to be. Aren't well all just trying to be the best of ourselves? To be that person that we've always wanted to be and create that identity? Maybe that is the reason why we find it hard to love the skin we are in and not finding it the way we wanted. When you love, you love with all you've got . That's the love we give to other people. But why do we find it hard to give that love to someone who deserves it most - which is ourselves? Sometimes, we create the excuse of being in a relationship despite not being compatible just for the sake of seeking that love we cannot give to our own selves. But aren't we supposed to try to make the longest relationship that we are to have to work? The relationship with our own selves? We will never find peace and confidence if we continue to seek what others want us to be. Do not let the idealisms get i...

I couldn’t contain my happiness right now. The book that have turned my emotions upside down won this year’s Best YA Fantasy and Science Fiction on Goodreads’ Best Books of 2016. Although I originally voted for Empire of Storms (because that was hella of a fifth book!!!!), it is still a SARAH J. MAAS BOOK!!!!!!!!! And every Sarah J. Maas’ books guarantees to wreck your heart and soul and pierce it back together!  CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL SJM TRASH AND RHYSAND’S DARLINGS. #NOTHINGBEATSTHATWINGSPAN

I actually didn't saw this coming. I have been posting letterings on my  IG  and then my good friend asked me if I could make her one. It feels really nice when someone appreciates your work. I am sooooo happy and blessed that they both liked it. Looking forward to many more!

I have written a lot on the notes of my phone but I have no intentions on posting those in here. I’ve been thinking what to post in here and then I’ve realized that in creating a blog – you are letting the whole world know your thoughts. You are letting them see yourself, your inner being.  And being me, I always like to keep a little mystery. I only chose parts of me that I show to people, parts that I think was acceptable. Who would want to be with someone awful? I just felt like sometimes when I let people in and let them see who I really am, they tend to live, say or make me feel that I am terrible. In creating a blog, it challenges you to be true; terrible things and all. Because in creating a blog, it requires writing. And in writing, we express our thoughts – positive and negative. We can’t always agree on things and be always on the side that majority are. But then, I am still on the years of creating myself; of creating an identity. And I also think that it i...

Once you let go of the things that hinders you from doing what you love, happiness comes next. I've been thinking, reflecting for the past months. Constantly asking myself, "Am I slowly becoming the person I want to be?" or, "Do I like what I do?" And it is not being selfish. To let yourself discover things.Uncover what is always within you. What your heart always longs to. I've gave it a hard thought. I know I wasn't talented, I was told many times. And I tried, again. Drawing had always been a hopeless dream for me. I wasn't as good as those artistic classmates at school. And no one ever told me, I don't have to be . And that, I should just do what I love regardless of the outcome. So at least, I know I tried and I was happy. This were just a few realizations that kept me to try it. To try new things and reinvent myself. To discover new things I was told I couldn't. Here are my first tries. ...

Synopsis:  On the day Liz Emerson tries to die, they had reviewed Newton’s laws of motion in physics class. Then, after school, she put them into practice by running her Mercedes off the road.   Why? Why did Liz Emerson decide that the world would be better off without her? Why did she give up? Vividly told by an unexpected and surprising narrator, this heartbreaking and nonlinear novel pieces together the short and devastating life of Meridian High’s most popular junior girl. Mass, acceleration, momentum, force—Liz didn’t understand it in physics, and even as her Mercedes hurtles toward the tree, she doesn’t understand it now. How do we impact one another? How do our actions reverberate? What does it mean to be a friend? To love someone? To be a daughter? Or a mother? Is life truly more than cause and effect? Amy Zhang’s haunting and universal story will appeal to fans of Lauren Oliver, Gayle Forman, and Jay Asher. Review: Liz Emerson tries to kill he...

Synopsis: The Fault in Our Stars  meets  Eleanor and Park  in this exhilarating and heart-wrenching love story about a girl who learns to live from a boy who intends to die. Soon to be a major motion picture starring Elle Fanning!   Theodore Finch  is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.   Violet Markey  lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.   When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with...

Synopsis: Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness. There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.  Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy toge...

What is greatness? Greatness for others, or in at least in the eyes of the society is being   better   on something than everyone else, or simply being the best. If that was greatness for you, then you must’ve already lost sight and your thoughts were already been manipulated by how the society wants you to think it is. What do you think about those people who chose the road not taken? Who chose to be themselves in spite of what the society calls them, a   weirdo with no lives and a loser.   They -- at least for me, is the epitome of being great. Because being great for me is doing what you love despite of whatever they may say about you. First, it all starts with the decision to grow. And for a person to grow, you need to let go. How and what to let go? Let go the fears and let in courage. May look and sound hard and actually take time but it will be worth it. Don’t just   go   with the flow. You are the captain of your own ship -- lead it ...

Don’t you just feel so drained sometimes? Like you just feel so fed up with the world? Like nothing’s ever changing? Like the world was never in your favor? Everything’s a mess and you just sat there thinking what was wrong? Or where did things go wrong? We were all searching for a place in this world. Teenage years are years of discovery. Being a college student was never easy; you would constantly as yourself, “Am I taking the right path?” But do you? What is the right path for you? Is there really a right and wrong paths to cross? Cheshire Cat from Alice in Wonderland once said, “If you don’t know where you are going, any road would get you there”. The thing is, we shouldn’t concentrate on whatever the paths we may cross. We should concentrate more on where we wanted to be. It’s not the road that takes us there but our mindset and willingness. Willing to take risks and willing to fail. Whatever problems you are facing today were just a phase. You will encounter tons o...